D107 : THE JOURNEY TO SELF
This video is a bit long, to go with the long weekend 🙂 I’d be interested to hear if you can relate to what I say.
I haven’t had a chance to tell a story about a buddhist monk (pastoral care) who visited me in the ward not long after I had the incident of not being able to walk.
It was a terrifying experience for me to see my left leg lay motionless when the doctor instructed me to lift it. At least my right leg still made the attempt even when it can barely went up and shook like a leaf. The funny thing is, I got asked if I worry with what happened to me and if I have ever had depression or panic attack. I wonder if they think my mind is playing trick on me lol. I can definitely say, the answer is no.
The visit from the monk was like a messenger sent at the right time. We chatted about the journey within.
She gives me comfort when she said,”In the end, we all have no legs. It doesn’t matter.”
She taught me a valuable lesson, to be able to go into the space of love and consciously stay there. The infinite peace we all have access to, if we are willing to go within.
I have a background story of why LOVE is the force of life within me and why I believe everyone deserve to love and be loved. Ironically, this lesson was conceived when I experience deep pain in my life.
Hence why I’m not scared of pain anymore. At the end of pain, there is bliss and spiritual growth. One day, I’ll tell this story 🙂
D107 of 280ish day chemo