Laughter with Cancer
Oct 04, 2015 02:06:07

D109 : Family time – HAPPY BIRTHDAY GABE

It’s my nephew’s bday on Oct 2. I came and visit him after karaoke. He had birthday picnic at noon. I didn’t join him because my antibiotic & chemo makes me photosensitive. If I was in better state and haven’t had infection, I’d probably brave it.

It was nice to spend time with my brother and his family. My sister in law fed me and Kim Indonesian food for dinner. I’m lucky to have such a kind and loving family too.

It was a long fun day of food, friends, and family. We stayed til 10. I got home at 11pm and crashed haha.

03.10.15

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Oct 04, 2015 01:57:44

D109: BE FEARLESSLY CREATIVE LIKE CHILDREN

I asked my nephew, Gabe, to be in my video of the day. What I love about children is their enthusiasm. They haven’t learned about fear of being judged and the need of perfection. I wasn’t answered with silence but a big yes of excitement. His eyes light up and he couldn’t wait to tell a story. He creatively made it up on the spot! I believe we as adult can learn a lot from children.

Love you Gabe 🙂

D109 of 287ish day chemo

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Oct 04, 2015 01:39:45

D109: Next FUN stop, KARAOKE

After yum cha, the fun continues at Karaoke. I’m making the most of my precious good days. Karaoke is a better option for fun if you go through chemo because you have your own space as opposed to being in a crowded space.

We ended up doing 4 hours karaoke haha. I’m so happy my walking is back to normal now and I was singing and dancing. My friend were like,”You were in ICU 2 weeks ago?” I am a bit sore today probably from the walk in the park, my attempt at pull up and karaoke haha. I forgot that my body can’t take much these days. I probably have lost some muscle mass in the last 3 month.

Highly recommend Kbox happy hour $21 for 5 hrs karaoke including 2 drinks. I’m banned to post the karaoke video. Here’s a quick wave from us 🙂

Thanks Rei, Danielle, Jo and Kim for a fun evening

03.10.15

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Oct 03, 2015 07:39:47

D109: YUUUUMMM CHA

Happy Saturday!

More feast on food and friendship! Because yum cha is yummieer with friends 🙂 I’m one lucky being with so many kind friends in my life.

Enjoy your long weekend!

03.10.09
D109 of 287ish day chemo

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Oct 03, 2015 02:45:48

D108: That happy feeling when your appetite is back!

When you are going through chemo, you lost your appetite for days, sometime weeks. Sometimes, even the smell of food make you sick. Sometimes, you forget what it feels like to feel hungry and the day you do, you’ll jump in joy. I have 4 days to eat up before I have to go back for chemo this Wednesday. I’m still not 100% but definitely feeling so much better.

A wise Indonesian priest said to me,”For as long as I still can eat, I know I’m still well.” It makes me think that I’m going to be well again when I can eat.

So smile and feel blessed when you feel hungry today!

The little things that we take for granted.

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Oct 02, 2015 13:34:54

D108: BACK TO THE NATURE

Happy Friday everyone 🙂

Finally, get to go out on my own feet.There is something about nature that brings serenity to our soul. I’m glad I could go for a walk even for a short time. How things have changed these days haha. If you have the energy to do exercise, then do it while you have the option to say yes.

I’m feeling fatigue more than anything since ICU. But I am definitely getting better by the day.

02.10.15
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Oct 01, 2015 13:14:35

D107 : THE JOURNEY TO SELF

This video is a bit long, to go with the long weekend 🙂 I’d be interested to hear if you can relate to what I say.

I haven’t had a chance to tell a story about a buddhist monk (pastoral care) who visited me in the ward not long after I had the incident of not being able to walk.

It was a terrifying experience for me to see my left leg lay motionless when the doctor instructed me to lift it. At least my right leg still made the attempt even when it can barely went up and shook like a leaf. The funny thing is, I got asked if I worry with what happened to me and if I have ever had depression or panic attack. I wonder if they think my mind is playing trick on me lol. I can definitely say, the answer is no.

The visit from the monk was like a messenger sent at the right time. We chatted about the journey within.

She gives me comfort when she said,”In the end, we all have no legs. It doesn’t matter.”

She taught me a valuable lesson, to be able to go into the space of love and consciously stay there. The infinite peace we all have access to, if we are willing to go within.

I have a background story of why LOVE is the force of life within me and why I believe everyone deserve to love and be loved. Ironically, this lesson was conceived when I experience deep pain in my life.

Hence why I’m not scared of pain anymore. At the end of pain, there is bliss and spiritual growth. One day, I’ll tell this story 🙂

01.10.15
D107 of 280ish day chemo

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Sep 30, 2015 13:03:32

D106 : KIND FRIENDS ARE THE BEST KIND.

I’m lucky to have impromptu visit today. Bless Karen and Mandy …oh and Maja the pup for coming over today. Karen helped with groceries and cooked something for me. She even helped vaccumed the house.

Mandy aka MacGyver help me run and check my car that I haven’t driven since I got sick.

I can’t thank them enough for being so kind to me. And, I have learnt to be comfortable with receiving. Soon, I shall be the giver again.

May there be plenty of kindness in your life too.

Blessings xx

30.09.15
D105 of 280ish day chemo

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Sep 30, 2015 01:50:51

D96: SMILING THROUGH ICU

I haven’t got a chance to upload these photos when I was in Peter Mac.Thanks to my sister in law Diana who took these photos to show my family overseas. If only she had taken photos when tears streaming down my face as I shivered from chills and sick from vomitting, you probably can’t tell how horrible I felt.

Looking back, I’m pretty crazy to still laugh with my awesome doctor Courtney (she’s rocking it in her hoodie! Thank you for coming in to watch me over) and funny nurse Sarah + my loyal sick bag that follows me everywhere haha.

I was under piles of blanket because I got chills and shiverred. My blood pressure dropped to 75. I want to thank med team at P. Mac. I can’t remember everyone’s name but nurse Meiling and Dr. Wanda greets me with a smile as I arrived. Also, ICU Dr. Victor.

I got admitted to AAA (Acute Assessment Area) then wheeled to ICU temporarily (PM ICU was full, they had to call in an extra ICU nurse to look after me until I got transferred to St. V. Thank you Alannah?). You know you are in trouble when they have to wheel you in your bed.

My AAA nurse Meiling banned me to walk around because my blood pressure is low. I didn’t realise it made me at risk with falling. So, she made me pee in a chair pan aka commode – one step closer to bed pan. She laughed when she came back and found me walking to the sink to wash my hand. She said I had to share this story. Sometimes, chemo brain doesn’t make you think straight!

I’m glad my ICU days are over. Infection is horrible. For my cancer friends, if you have fever of 38 or more , act early and go to emergency. I’m lucky I bounced back pretty quick or I could be in a lot of trouble.

20.09.15

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Sep 29, 2015 13:29:09

D105 : HEALING WITH A JOYFUL HEART

My body is still in recovery mode. Eat and rest is the theme. My energy level is still quite low but I know it will pass soon.

I am grateful that a very kind priest, Romo Utomo called me today to pray and send healing for me. Many people come to him for healing. He is in his 80s. He flew from Indonesia and he is fitter than me at this stage ha 🙂 He prays beautifully. Everyday, 7am Indonesian time, he’d invite everyone to pray with him and receive God’s blessings.

I love his message to me,”To always have a joyful heart and see everything as a gift”

I answered with laughter,”Always.

29.09.15
D105 of 280ish day chemo

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