D177: My sign thanks to Alana my nurse who cares for me last night. Got plenty of morning hugs too. I’ve got my oncology doctor and my pain doctors visited me early today.

The nurses who saw my wound feel sorry for me but the pain doctors Yvette, John and Noah? (apology if my chemo brain mixed this up) are getting me on top of it with several pain killers on board.

My oncology doctors Arsha and Shirley gave me good news that I’ll be on a month’s break chemo to give me time to heal my radiation wound. They do not want to risk me not getting out of ICU since I have had gone to ICU twice and the second time I stayed longer.

This 5 days ICU has changed me expontially. I came out with immense sense of peace and mindfulness.

NOTHING MATTERS BUT THE GIFT OF LIFE ITSELF.

The year almost end, the best time to reflect on what has happened, how it has changed you and what changes you want to happen in your life for your best year ahead.

PS: The day is still young even when I’m bed bound, I’ll have people come and hug me haha. I think my eyes is a bit puffy on the photos. I have happy tears this morning. I’m so blessed to be out of ICU!!

10.12.15