D168: BEAUTIFUL MESSAGE FROM A CARER – Thank you Julie

Julie was kind enough to do hospital run for radiation today. I was unwell and had to stay back after radiation. My quick trip becomes a long one. I had to top myself up with more anti nausea and pain killers. Adam, my lovely nurse, sat me on a recliners chair for a breather as I popped my pills. Poor Adam and Julie, witnessed tears streaming down my face. I said to him,”I didn’t even know why I’m crying.” I wish I could say it’s that time of the month but no more for me since chemo haha. I made a mistake on doing an epsom bath today. Bad idea if your skin is already breaking down. Dang, it was burning pain. If I was in a console game, that would have taken out my life charge. My body probably exhausted from the whole ordeal and dealing with intense pain in the last few weeks. The plan is to up my painkiller regularly. Sometimes, we can’t be strong and it’s okay. I still left that chair with a big smile. Pain will never steal me away from my laughter 🙂

Back to the point, I want to give a big shout out to amazing carers out there. You are the strength of our journey. Behind every cancer patient, there is an immense love from a carer that keep us going. It is not easy being in this journey. So, be kind to yourself too.

To all the carers out there, know that you are loved. Don’t hesitate to reach out and use your support network. Don’t feel guilty to take time out to recharge if you need to. It is very important for each and everyone of us to pay attention to our happiness level. There is nothing wrong to make time for yourself to do things that make you happy. Your life is not at halt when cancer strikes.

You become a more loving, kind, generous, compassionate person when you are happier.

You probably heard it many times. Yet, it isn’t until we experienced it that we understand.

My wish is for you to find the happiness within. The day, you’re finally home in the heart of love.

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