D167 : NEVER GIVE UP ON HOPE – Jenny

Jenny picked me up on Monday after 6 days in hospital. I’m on my hardest bump of my treatment with combo of chemo and radiation. At least, I’m almost done with my 5 weeks radiation. I’ve been warned the peak of radiation effect will come at the end. It has been the most pain I’ve experienced since I started chemo. My radio oncologist, the lovely Julie Chu, said I’m the rare few who gets severe side effect. It’s bad because it’s in sensitive area. I remember she said my radiation is only on medium 40 gray. I can’t imagine those who have to do on high radiation. I pray for you. Hang in there. One day, we will look back and it will be our past.

I was discharged with goodie bag filled with strong pain killers. I’ve never taken so much pain killer and breakthrough in my life. I have to say it was confronting for me. The doc advises that I need to manage my pain and get on top of it. It takes a while to accept for me but at times we have to do what needs to be done to push through this.

My dietitian won’t be happy but I’ve been losing more weight. Sorry Lauren 🙁 So, if today you can eat, what a blessing day it is 🙂

Please send me healing vibes that I won’t get any infection in between chemo again. Especially, with my skin breaking down and vulnerable to infection.

30.11.15
D167 of 294 days chemo